♥ Her Heart Says..♥

Tercipta lah lagu kita...

2010-03-11T23:58:00.000-08:00

Deras hati ku berdetar
Dilangit aku terlihat kamu
Terang mlm teman kita
Dgn angin meniup sayu...

Ku petik guitar akustik ini
Dgn harapan dia mendengar
Melodi indah yg ku cipta
Hanya untuk luahkan rinduku padanya..

Dan aku terus menyanyi lagu ini untuk mu.
Walau berjuta mendengar lagu ini hanya untuk mu...

Arah hidup kita terkapar bintang di angkasa
Berkelip melukis cinta, tercipta lah lagu kita.

Melodi indah yg ku cipta
Hanya untuk luahkn rinduku padanya..

Tercipta lah lagu kita...

Mimi ! Bibik rindu sama mu ! =)

2010-03-08T08:47:00.000-08:00

Cute kan budak kecik ni ? 18th months old. Macam tgh isi application form ! Haha ! Bibik miss you alot. Come home soon okay Little Muffin ? Muacks !

2010-03-08T08:05:00.000-08:00

Life is a building. It rises slowly, day by day, through the years. Every new lesson we learn lays a block on the edifice which is rising silently within us. Every experience, every touch of another life on ours, every influence that impresses us, every book we read, every conversation we have, every act of our commonest days adds to the invisible building. For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.

Yes, the truth is....

2010-02-25T03:30:00.000-08:00

"I'm tired of all this. Dear heart, please stop aching."

What ? EeeeR. Okay.

2010-02-23T05:03:00.000-08:00

I had a long day at work on this particular day and served a very "special" customer.

It's a he. A chinese man in his 40s i guess. He came to me and asked me this;

Customer: "Are you malay ? "

Me: "Yes."

Customer: "Do you wanna listen to a malay joke ?"

Me "Sure."

Well, I had to say that because i don't want him to feel offended or something if i were to say NO.

So here goes the "joke".....

Customer: "There was a malay boy who wanted to grab something to eat as he was starving. So he went to a malay stall and asked something like this; "Hello cik, can i get a H1N1 ?"

The owner of the stall splashed a bowl of curry sauce to his face. (The customer went quiet, waiting for a reaction i guess)

Customer: "What he meant was Hamburger 1 and Nugget 1. (H1N1)

And i was like "Eeeerrr... Must i laugh?"

Customer: "So how was the joke? Funny right ? HAHAHAHAHAH!"

I smiled and went "What the hell? Lame ! haha !"

Seriously LAME TO HELL.

Well, atleast he tried to be funny, right ?

You, We, Us, Me.

2010-02-18T04:49:00.000-08:00

"Sometimes we strive so hard for perfection that we forget that imperfection is happiness."

Loneliness and Depression.

2010-02-10T08:55:00.000-08:00

I am going through something very special at the moment, even though it feels very bad.

If I felt myself good and happy all the time, then I would always feel that I'm one with the world, with nature; but then, things happen to me that make me feel bad, lonely and depressed. Then, when I feel like this, I find myself incapable of justifying everything around me as being good. Why? Because I feel bad, and if nature and people around me are supposed to be good-"all-giving and all-loving"-then why would I be made to feel like this?

I do not understand why it's turned out this way, or where it came from, where I went wrong, or what I did to deserve such loneliness and depression. Many interpret and justify mine and others' pains however they see fit. But everyone agrees that loneliness and depression makes us wonder about what causes it and what its purpose is.

The more we are led into loneliness and depression, isolation and confusion, the more we search according to questions of our life's purpose. We might not even be alone physically,we might be in constant contact with friends, workmates, family, and all sorts of people,but inside us is a space that none of these people can fulfill. This space, this deepest point, works on us by bringing confusion, pain, loneliness and depression, and it expresses itself as the most basic question we could ever ask: "What is the meaning of life?"

This question, this desire to discover life's true meaning, stands behind every other question and everything we do in this world. No matter what we do to make ourselves feel good, this question waits for us to pay attention to it in our darkest moments. Wanting to discover the meaning of life is the biggest, greatest desire that can appear, and we have been, or will be, put through so much pain so that we will ask this question and start wanting its true answer.

Every desire we have is a certain emptiness that needs to be filled, and so the greatest desire thus gives us the greatest feeling of emptiness. We feel the loneliest and the most separation at the point where we desire the greatest connection, and can't have it. And this isn't just a connection to a beer buddy, family or to the opposite sex, but a connection to life's source, where pleasure would fulfill our deepest yearning abundantly.

The meaning of life is to reach such a sensation of the universe during this lifetime, that there will be no difference between life and death in this world and existence in another world, on another plane, in another dimension, when one starts to freely live in all the dimensions, and not just in one's present sensation.

Only heart that tells you everything.

2010-02-05T21:24:00.000-08:00

Hilmi !

2010-02-03T05:38:00.000-08:00

Well, i really miss this little muffin.

When will i get to meet him again ? =(

Grrrrrrr-ram laaah !

Pain

2010-02-02T04:23:00.001-08:00

"Your heart says stay and battle the pain, but your mind says leave for all this isn't needed, broken into pieces for that one an only. But follow your heart because the heart can only take so much.
The longer the life the more the offense, the more the offense the more the pain, the more the pain the less defense and the less defense the less the gain.Pain is such an uncomfortable feeling that even a tiny amount of it is enough to ruin every enjoyment."

To Forgive? Or not to ? Haiz. I still can't.

2010-01-28T01:56:00.000-08:00

“It isn't what you have, or who you are, or where you are, or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy. It is what you think about.”

Just.

2010-01-25T20:45:00.001-08:00

"LOVE IS A SMALL STAGE OF SUICIDE,

Yet a wonderful thing to have."

Everyone is special, my friend.

2010-01-18T17:35:00.000-08:00

There's a basic human weakness inherent in all people which tempts them to want what they can't have and not want what is readily available to them.

Only a kind person is able to judge another justly and to make allowances for his weaknesses. A kind eye, while recognising defects, sees beyond them.

So let us begin anew, remembering on both sides that civility is not a sign of weakness, and sincerity is always subject to proof.

The greatest weakness of all is the great fear of appearing weak.

If you think a weakness can be turned into a strength, I hate to tell you this, but that's another weakness.

The morality of compromise sounds contradictory. Compromise is usually a sign of weakness, or an admission of defeat. Strong men don't compromise, it is said, and principles should never be compromised as our strength grows out of our weaknesses.

Every age, every culture, every custom and tradition has its own character, its own weakness and its own strength, its beauties and cruelties, it accepts certain sufferings as matters of course, puts up patiently with certain evils. Human life is reduced. And Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character.

We all have ability. The difference is how we use it. We must not, in trying to think about how we can make a big difference, ignore the small daily differences we can make which, over time, add up to big differences that we often cannot foresee.

You're the only one who can make the difference. Whatever your dream is, go for it.

Label as? Im Confused.

2010-01-09T23:25:00.000-08:00

We enjoy warmth because we have been cold. We appreciate light because we have been in darkness. By the same token, we can experience joy because we have known sadness.
It breaks my heart, it makes me sad to think of all the times we had. You made me laugh and you made me cry. And all that I can do is sigh and wonder why.
The day you betrayed my trust was the day that I lost all my trust for you. I believed that you would take care of my heart and that's why I left it with you. Well, I am taking it back because at this very moment I can't trust you with my heart in fear that you will hurt me once more. Thanks buddy.

A box full of kisses.

2010-01-03T23:07:00.001-08:00

The story goes that some time ago, a man punished his 3-year-old daughter for wasting a roll of gold wrapping paper. Money was tight and he became infuriated when the child tried to decorate a box to put under the Christmas tree. Nevertheless, the little girl brought the gift to her father the next morning and said, "This is for you, Daddy."

The man was embarrassed by his earlier overreaction, but his anger flared again when he found out the box was empty. He yelled at her, stating, "Don't you know, when you give someone a present, there is supposed to be something inside? The little girl looked up at him with tears in her eyes and cried, "Oh, Daddy, it's not empty at all. I blew kisses into the box. They're all for you, Daddy."

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little girl, and he begged for her forgiveness.

Only a short time later, an accident took the life of the child. It is also told that her father kept that gold box by his bed for many years and, whenever he was discouraged, he would take out an imaginary kiss and remember the love of the child who had put it there.

In a very real sense, each one of us, as humans beings, have been given a gold container filled with unconditional love and kisses... from our children, family members, friends, and God. There is simply no other possession, anyone could hold, more precious than this.

This is how life goes on.

2010-01-01T04:50:00.000-08:00

A man who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life. All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better. All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on.

Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you out. Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact. But now I have come to believe that the whole world is an enigma, a harmless enigma that is made terrible by our own mad attempt to interpret it as though it had an underlying truth. Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment. Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first.

Every man dies. Not every man really lives.Everything has been figured out, except how to live. Everything in life is luck. Fortunately analysis is not the only way to resolve inner conflicts. Life itself still remains a very effective therapist .God writes a lot of comedy... the trouble is, he's stuck with so many bad actors who don't know how to play funny. I love life because what more is there.

You mean ....

2009-12-29T08:30:00.000-08:00

"You mean the world to me and I'll never stop loving you. 'Cause what you have given me, I can never repay. And if we meet somehow, I will love you then as now. 'Cause you mean the world to me."

Left Unsaid.

2009-10-18T04:11:00.000-07:00

Telling the truth, that would be keen;

Distorting the facts, now that's mean.

Being honest, you could never be;

For you are blind, being true you could never see.

You woud be bitten, if a fib was a snake;

Death by a viper, that would be your fate.

Your lips say one thing, but reality is in the eyes;

In the end, karma will catch up to your lies.

Walking As Angels.

2009-10-13T03:47:00.000-07:00

We laid back and let it all flow out
the topic of trust never once had a doubt,
for within my mind and heart as well
was an image and vibe as clear as a bell.
You were very special to me and more
I had a feeling inside I never felt before.
A trust so great and strong
I wanted this trust to take away all the wrong
and return to me a mended soul.
My mended soul would then release a new angel beside the other one
and together we would stroll the heavens,
our times are over and done.
For we have then won the battle within
and now we rest for created we have a personality twin,
Think alike, talk alike, say the same thing.

It is time we are to ascend
for we have reached the territory of a best friend.

But friendships break even the best of ones
then all me have established becomes undone.
Your job as my angel is then complete
because you have left me with only my pen and sheet.
I am now forced to record what I feel to something unlike you and I,
it's not real.
I'm talking to myself, every single word
I write to paper but what I'm saying goes left unheard.

All this because of you my angel,
you are no longer beside me
though I beg and plea
our friendship just wasn't meant to be.

But do not worry my pen is okay
For within my heart our memories will always stay,
Forever...

because a part of you will be with me always, to forget you
Never..

Dancing with Destiny.

2009-09-29T02:45:00.000-07:00

I am getting tired
of starting afresh
each time
somewhere new.

To you everything was
just a game,
it’s easy to say
i was a fool.

Helpless, pretending,
hoping someone would see
i guess i fell straight
into the trap.

I wonder what it feels like
to find the one in this life,
the one we all dream of,
but dreams aren't just enough.

Confused about my very existence
just knowing certain things
will never change for us at all
i did my best to keep going.

Tonight, out in the moonlight,
me standing here under the stars,
looking for a diamond in the rough
never knowing when it will show up,
i am ready now.

In the darkness of my mind
as i get ready to breathe my last
I’ve got a confession to make,
loving you was a mistake.

You gave me something
that i didn’t have,
but in my heart you don’t exist anymore
as my mind decides between life and death,
tempting fate and
dancing with destiny,
i am swallowed up in the
sound of my screaming.
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The apple of my eyes

2009-09-09T05:44:00.000-07:00

Been busy taking care of my nephew. =)